insomnia diary 10/31/12

didn't sleep well, no surprise. started feeling tired around two, but still had to take a bath. that was nice, hot water, stupid book. didn't open my computer up again.

tried to sleep. both curtains closed, eye mask on. didn't happen. got up a few times, but didn't reopen the computer. think i brushed my teeth twice?

last time I remember seeing a clock it was 3:15.

weird dreams. about friends and breasts and cheese. i don't know. are my dreams supposed to tell me things? i hope not.

woke up naturally just before ten, still tired. went back to bed for another forty five minutes. don't know if I slept. turned the alarm off, didn't get up right away, but I was brushing my teeth by 11:11, clapped for good luck. forgot to make a wish. all of my wishes should be about getting enough sleep.

woke up with an upset stomach. felt too ill to catch a bus to be on time for american lit discussion. probably feel good enough to leave now, only i haven't done the reading for shakespeare and i hate that class, so probably not going. is a legit life choice. plus, i might start feeling sick again. that seems likely/possible.

haven't eaten anything today except tums and toothpaste.

happy halloween.

three cornered hats

so it's like two in the morning and I am still up. I was up till four yestrday because my parents were out of town so no one told me to go to bed. no one is telling me to go to bed now because they are sleeping because they are old and boring

i really should sleep because this is wasting my time

like, just a minute ago i was looking at pictures of panic! at the disco, because there was a link, and i clicked it, and on the other side was pictures of panic! at the disco. They used to be my favorite band and saying that now, four or five years later makes me feel unclean. But, like, I don't even know. Seeing Panic on the nothing rhymes with circus tour was my first concert, and it was fantastic. absolutely amazing, a spectacle, at the target center. I went with my dad and my friend johanna who I don't really even like very much, and my shoe lace died so i closed my converse up with safety pins, and felt cool. when songs off there first album come up on shuffell I don't skip them unless I am paying attention, then I do because i don't want it to scrobble it on last.fm because they're a top played band, and I don't want people to see that. I don't want to be associated with Panic! at the disco.

now i gotta go sleep ok whatever