I am not a terrible person, but right now I am a kind of shitty friend who cancels plans, and doesn't answer emails, or facebook messages. But, like, I'm trying. Kind of. I want to try. I know that I'm doing poorly, and I want to be doing better. But wanting something and being able to accomplish something and actually doing it are three different things. So I'm sorry world, I appologize for my failures, but I also don't care that much because caring would just make me unhappy and I don't want to be unhappy. Sometimes not communicating makes me happy, or no, it makes me less unhappy, so sometimes that's what I have to do. Not sorry, not really. Goodnight.