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Is watching slash vids for school. This is why I love college. Because vids! Kirk and Spok and Firefly! This is already what I am thinking about! Now I get to think about it for a grade!

love love love love love = my brain on coffee and fandom

take good care of yourself

Back at school tomorrow, argh. classes don't start til tuesday but have to do the whole re-moving/settling/locating/textbook thing. not excited.
Well, yes excited, but skeptically. If given another week would probably be prepared to murder the parents, and that's not good. So, excited? It's all in the question mark.

This is me giving my self some advice for the next semester because I learned a lot since September and need to get my thoughts organized. It's good advice in general though, and I'd advise considering following it even if you aren't me.

ADVICE

• take care of your skin and your hair and your body. It's the only one you get.
• Don't spend time with people you don't like very much because it's convenient. I've met some great new people and have best friends who I love with all my heart, but there are also a lot of people who I don't need to share my time with. As an introvert I need to recognize that there is nothing unhealthy about being alone and that it's definitely preferable to being with people I don't like.
• Speak up. Be yourself. This ties directly into the item above.
• Don't go on dates with boys who could vote Republican. See above.

Also, fuck my wrist. I've been knitting a lot and using my computer at stupid angles and then babying it at different odd angles and it just sucks. I am like Queen sXe uptight about medication but really think I am going to take some pain killer before bed because it hurts like a motherfucker.

You can tell I'm in pain because I'm swearing more. Actually, I just want to cuss at my wrist like my dad does when the kitchen drawers attack. Only I'm afraid it will scare the cat, and we wouldn't want that.

I will miss her so much when I go back to school. She is my baby. She was created for me to pick up and carry around. Absolutely. Don't listen to anything she meows to the contrary. I am the person in this situation so I know what is going on.

Now my wrist is making me type weird, so that's all.

Stay beautiful!

Nov 22

I woke up and 8 to register for classes, but really I was awake before that, because I have roommates, and they have electronics, and my clock said 6:58 and that is my idea of hell: Any time before seven.
But whatever. I have classes, and they are awesome. (I also maybe have class, but that is not up for debate tonight.)
What's changed in registering while having actual college experience is that I think about meals while making my schedule. What does this mean about my choices to eat things? It's an important question to ask. I am all for thinking with your stomach. My stomach is smarter than a lot of my other parts.
Like the part of me that decided getting a small mocha from Starbucks in Coffman was a wonderful idea. Because my hands were cold, but they are always cold, even in the summer. It's probably poor circulation, and coffee won't do anything to cure that.
It will fuel staying up late and writing, which is what I want to do tonight. Wednesdays are always tiring, but I don't care. I've just deiced to say fuck it, and struggle through tomorrow in favor of kicking back tonight.

"Justice has been done?"

this blog was written for my class Engaging Justice, but I am really happy with it and decided to repost it here. It's not my usual thing, but whatever, whatever.

In class last week we talked briefly about the killing of Osama bin Laden, and how in his speech announcing this development President Obama used the phrase "justice has been done," and how that's just a really odd thing to say. The whole line was, "And on nights like this one, we can say to those families who have lost loved ones to al Qaeda's terror, justice has been done." It's an awkward line, and overall not his most eloquent speech, but he has the excuse of not knowing for sure that bin Laden was dead until after it actually happened. (Unless presidents write these things ahead; maybe he has a drawer of speeches prepared for every occasion, which can be brought out and polished as need be, much like how newspapers have pre-written obituaries for people they think are going to die.)
In saying that "justice has been done," Obama used justice to refer to punishment. It was punishment he referred to in the same speech when he said that he "authorized an operation to get Osama bin Laden and bring him to justice."
However, this punitive form of justice doesn't encompass every nuance of the word. In many cases justice means fairness. It means that everyone gets the respect and resources that they deserve. An argument could be made that because bin Laden was a terrorist getting what he deserved meant being killed by Navy Seals. But for ordinary people, especially minoritized people, justice means being allowed access to resources they've been deprived of and respect they've been denied. It seems that it is this second, social meaning that we're exploring in class.
I don't know if America's killing of Osama bin Laden was just or not. I read a lot, but don't feel that I am informed enough about global politics to pass judgement. My feeling on bin Laden's death are well explained by political commenter Nate Fick (who's name you may recognize from the book turned HBO miniseries Generation Kill). Fick wrote that "His death allows the United States to focus on other core interests - restoring America's economic strength, developing and implementing more sensible energy policies, and reinvigorating America's relationships with emerging powers around the world." Now that bin Laden is no longer a direct concern maybe we could move further away from panic and conflict and refocus our attention on issues like education and the economy. Now that "justice has been done" for those hurt by 9/11 maybe now, a decade later the government can start serving up another kind of justice for the oppressed within America's borders.

accepted

I was accepted at Hamline which is very cool, even though I'm not super excited about going there, but it is reassuring to know that I can at least go somewhere.
That next year deffinately I will be going to a good college, unless I choose otherwise, which I don't really see happening. I will not be stuck at mctc or doing nothing, not that those are particularly bad paths, just not the ones I want.
I have to write all of my common app school essays by the first and have only started today, so it will be lots and lots of fun this week! Not! but it will probably be good for me. There should be a class for college applying. Like, required, so doing the stuff that you have to do and then you get a grade, and it would be a super easy class so I would have an A and it would raise my gpa and then I would get accepted more places. It would kick ass, but also be really boring and suck a lot.
contraditions are my sunday brunch

BEST WEEK EVER!

So, today is a snowday, and tommorrow is a snowday. Today I read books and listened to p4k's top songs of the year, 100-51. Tommorow I can do the same thing with different books, and songs 50-1, which can only be an improvement on an already satisfactory type of day. I love everything, except for school, obviously. There will only be three days left and then winter break. Best week ever.

Friday Fun

When I was in elementry school we had something called friday fun, which was basically a couple hours of free time in the afternoon, and if you were naughty you don't get to play. If there wasn't school on friday it was called thursday thrills.
In fifth grade we colored our hair with magic markers. It didn't show up very well in mine, because it's very dark, dark enough that people call it black, though it isn't and that's just the contrast between the bleach. But it looked really cool in Mat's, because she used to be more blonde, and pretty well in Emma's, but she didn't like doing that.
Now my friday fun is reading Freak Angles, the weekly web comic by the crazy english man Warren Ellis. It is post apocolyptic steampunk fun. read http://www.freakangels.com/ and enjoy.

save the something everything

I was going to post something yesterday, but instead I got ensnared in watching Heroes. I'll be done with the first season today or tommorow! (after starting last christmas...)
It's a really cool show, but I hear it gets worse, but I still chose to watch it, because that is the way I am. Irrational.
School was alright, whatever. I forgot my lunch, which was sad, but I'll live. That's an attitude I should wear around more often, it's eriely healthy.

Southerner comes out soon, and is going to be up online. I'll post a link.

I've got another writing project going on too, but it's staying under my hat for now, incase it goes nowhere.