hope

maybe if I throw all my words up here I'll be able to use them for something useful later on. I have things to say but can't commit them to paper or digital documents. I just feel unmotivated, only not really. I feel over motivated. the pressure to write things, to finish things, is driving expectations too high. It makes me want to bite my fingers. i need better coping strategies. i need better light sources. i need to write an english paper for wenesday, and a response for queering theory, and blogging for school is just the worst idea ever. seriously, they should ban that shit now, before it hurts my grades. ha ha ha no really, blogging is the worst.